Acceptance

HE'S ALMOST HERE!!!!! 

Some ladies in the ward are throwing me a baby shower but not til the 25th of February! Late, I know. But thanks to my mommy we got all the things baby will really need until then. I've already packed my hospital bag and the diaper bag. Last week the doctor said I was 38 weeks, 3 cm dilated and if I didn't go into labor that week, then he should the next. So this week it is.... We decided to stick with the original name, Malosi Tre Peters. So we're anxiously waiting for him to come. It's been a long almost 39 weeks... and this pregnancy has definitely taken a toll on my body. I thought I had a lot to complain about before, but now I wish I would have taken better care of my body since the beginning. Yes, I've gained some stretch marks, okay maybe a lot. Mos gets mad when I complain about it, he says it all worth it cause of baby... I've got the best husband ever..... I should have been lotioning regularly since the beginning but I didn't think anything of it. My belly started getting big real fast. It probably didn't help that I've been craving lots and lots of sweets, and since Mos says he can't say no to me, I get what I want lol He always tells me no at first that baby has had enough sweets but then he always caves in when I give him the sad face. So the average woman gains 25-35 lbs during a pregnancy, I've gained.... dun dun dun..... 40 lbs! SHAME! hahahahaha I gained most of it around Thanksgiving... But now I just need to accept that my body will never be the same. All my clothes back in Hawaii probably won't fit and keeping it as motivation just won't work, I already know it won't lol So through the 5 stages of grief I go!

1. Denial - Check!

2. Anger- Check!

3. Bargaining- Check!

4. Depression- Check!

5. Acceptance- working on it!!!!

So until the next time I blog, wish me luck!!!! I'm going to try my hardest giving birth naturally without any medication or an epidural. We'll see how I do with that... hoping for the best. Pain and me don't get along too well.

This is the Life of the Peters!