MissNotSoIndependent

Sariah has always been such a good baby. She has always been so eager to learn new things on her own. I was so anxious for Losi to start crawling and walking, but he took his time and crawled around 9 months and walked at 11 months. I use to compare him to other babies that I seen walking by 9-10 months and thought he was so behind. But every child is different. We shouldn't ever compare one child to another. So when Sariah started sitting up on her own at 5 months and crawling at 6 months I was like 'Woooaaahhh there! Why you in such a hurry?' But seriously. She just seems like she's in such a hurry to be a big girl. I almost can't keep up with her. She's crawling all over the place, standing up on everything, and she hates being carried and being in her walker. All she wants to do is crawl. But our floors are kinda filthy so she has 2 5X7rugs that I roll out before I put her down. That's as much crawling space as she gets. She hates it. She wants to be all over the place and explore. My poor baby. So I've got a baby that wants to be a big girl. Oh, but then... Siiiiike!! Girlfriend has attachment issues. It started when her whole schedule changed when we went to Cali. She did pretty well for the 3 hour time change though. Not to mention she had just cut 2 teeth and more were on their way. She loved being able to crawl all over the place over there, but when she wasn't crawling she was being carried. Well duh, my family doesn't get to see my kids very often. Of course they want to smother her with love as much as they can. I totally get it. Then we come back home where she only has a small space to crawl and doesn't get that attention she just had for the past 2 and a half weeks. Sorry girl, back to reality. So since we've been back it's been hard to get her to fall asleep on her own again. No more being rocked, and patted, and kissed to sleep. She frekin wiiiiiiiish!! You're back home now, you go sleep by yoself! She also had a little trouble falling asleep around 5 months when she learned to sit up on her own. As soon as I would lay her in her crib she'd push herself up and sit up and just stare at me. I'd have to lay her down at least another 4 times before she realized she was too tired to keep sitting up. So I have a girl that is attached to my hip and won't let me go bathroom without crying her eyes out. I just finished putting her to sleep before writing this post. I tried letting her cry it out for the first 45 minutes, but we get other people in the house so I can't let that go on for too long. So I nursed her to sleep and lay her in her crib. There were moments where I just wanted to cuddle her and hold her as I sat there watching her standing up in her crib, reaching out to me with tears just streeeaaaaming down her face. (I know, mom of the year award goes to me) She won't be a baby for long. I'm going to miss her being so little and needy. And it's okay to do that sometimes. But not tonight. Tonight she just needed to cry. Sorry bout it homegirl. I love you Sariah my chunky princess!!!!!!

I love that girl so much! There's no way to explain the love I have for her. She melts my heart every day. Thank you Heavenly Father for blessing me with another amazing child :) I am beyond blessed!